I am so excited! 

It is 2:30 in the morning and I am wide awake.  

This happens when I get a brilliant idea.  And the only way to deal with it is to write it down.  This one has a lot to do with Lightmail and my original purpose in providing this service.

So here’s the story.

Light Mail                                                                                           March 26, 2008

Seven years ago I underwent a major career transition; I was called to become a minister within this spiritual philosophy I practice; New Thought, some of what I see as leading edge, global transformation spirituality.  When I first embarked upon this path I believed somehow that it would be a spring stroll, after all I was being guided, literally compelled in this new direction.

I shouldn’t have been so naïve.  Spirit doesn’t impel us into a Sunday stroll excusing the play on words.  It always moves us on the path of our greatest growth opportunity; this implies growth, change, inner conflict and transformation which usually come about through outer conflict.  I was no different than all those people whose footsteps I followed.  I was not somehow the special one; not that I consciously assumed I would be.  Just deep down, somewhere in the echoes of my unconscious mind there was, could I say a certain smugness, a belief that somehow my choosing would be a bed of roses because I knew my calling was real.  

Whatever that feeling might have been I couldn’t have been more completely wrong.   Almost immediately the life I had been living was dashed to pieces.  I found myself living Humpty Dumpty’s nursery rhyme, trying to fit the pieces back together.

The beauty of my crisis was the beauty of every crisis, it is the embryo of a new opportunity.  

Once we get ourselves out of the way!

I did and Lightmail was born.  As I began to grow my Centre a number of my, what I call, key players moved away, often to areas devoid of a New Thought presence, sometimes void of any ‘conscious’ presence.  I missed them; in those first years those were the ones I most wanted to stand by me.  Once I got over my own loss I recognized their loss; what they, some even many of you, had given up spiritually in order to follow your inner callings.  

I thought long and hard about how I could honour your commitment to inner growth and your own ‘awakening to your spiritual magnificence’ in such far flung corners of the world.  Lightmail was my answer.  It started with only a few.  In a short time it proved its value through its growth.

But lately I’ve lost my writing spark. I have not been satisfied; I have felt an inner urge telling me something needed to change.  I haven’t felt that irrepressible urge to write anything, and without it I am unable to write.  I started to feel a general falling away of Lightmail readers, maybe not physically but certainly energetically.  As if there was a new urge to grow and I was missing it.

Then, about an hour ago it struck me.  It woke me from a sound sleep, and brought me here, to my computer and you.