It is a fascinating thing to me, how little control I seem to have over the wanderings of my mind.  I practice a degree of control, I practice at least being in control of the tendency of my thoughts.  Yet still I frequently find my thoughts buzzing around some less savory experience of my own or another’s and I am called to reassert my mental dominion.  It is not easy yet I believe it is valuable, possibly even the most valuable thing I do in any given moment.

Today Is Remembrance Day here in Canada, Victory Day in the States and in many countries across the ocean it is Armistice Day.  On a day like today I find the challenge of being consciously alert to the patterns of my thinking almost a full time job in itself.  The tendency of thought seems to be toward loss; the ‘price’ we paid and the wars we fought. 

I would not consciously choose to allow my mental activity to revel in that playground.  I would not because ultimately I believe my thought is creative exactly according to its nature.  So my thought would then be adding to my own experience and a more general experience of loss.  My thought would be fanning the flames of war and conflict, and all the suffering they engender.  I do not believe any of us have idle thoughts, therefore I do my best to keep a conscious vigil.  I seek to remember peace today and every day; I seek to remember acts of empowerment, awakening and transformation.

I also believe that the only way I can determine the tendency of my thinking is through the patterns of my life.  For example the things that happen to me and around me are the waves of consequence of my past patterns of thinking.  I believe that every thing that catches my attention is a reflection of my tendency of thought.  If I am alert and catch the tendency I can change it, I can consciously co-create my experience be realigning my deeper patterns of thinking with harmonious unfoldment.  

So if this is true then ultimately I am saying that I am being or at least have been a participant in the atrocities that I have noticed in the world.